the jews killed jesus

please, please, please don't think i am an anti-semite. i am against all organized religions, actually.

after 12 years of brainwashing in a catholic school, they did all but pump subliminal messages into the drinking water and over public address system. *jesus died for your sins.* whoa -- jesus died because i got into a fight with my brother? holy shit! even in a 7-year-old's mind that seems like way too much power over someone.

dressed in our little blue uniforms and peter pan collar blouses, knee socks slouched to a certain level of coolness, we were pawns in the big, fat, religious conspiracy of catholicism. we were made to feel guilty for being girls, after all it was eve who fed adam the friggin apple and made it all go to shit supposedly. why? because adam was too friggin lazy to make his own dinner, dammit!

let's face it, our attendance was based more on a shitty public school system and not our parent's piety.

so when my friend talked about the moving religious service she attended, it was hard to see how this happened. what my head tuned out, it seems, is the fact that it was a jewish service she attended. my ears heard religion and automatically shut down. frankly, i am surprised i didn't go straight to my inner happy place.

well, that's surprising. its not that we were against the jewish faith, as i said before, we are just wary of any bully-pulpits. so that fact that she got some satisfaction from it really threw me for a loop.

instead of encouraging her experience, the rest of my friends cracked jokes. (deal with it. it's what we do.) we laughed how the nuns would have responded, "but the jews killed jesus."

of course, someone also pointed out the romans killed jesus but that doesn't justify any acts of persecution that have been heaped on the jewish people for all time. plus it doesn't look as good on a t-shirt.